Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Freedom

In soft rain she stood,
With the wind in her hair.
Seeing a golden sunset for the first time,
Freedom was at her fingertips.
She was a dancing summer sunbeam,
Laughing away through the swaying long grass.
A battered brown briefcase in her hand,
Many a tender farewell kiss on her lips.
She set off into the big wide world,
Of
Roses and rainbows,
Summers and sadness,
Lizards and longings.
Hopes flung high into the misted stars.
She was ready to be free.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Just thinking...

Well, right about now I should be posting up the next segment of the story below, but I really need to get out a bit of mindless rambling before bed.

Things I Hate:
  • When you're lying in bed, really tired, and you roll over, and you roll over, and you roll over, and you close your eyes, and you open your eyes, and you put all your blankets on you, and you take all the blankets off... And you just can't sleep!
  • When the above happens and there is something really exciting happening the next day, like Christmas, and you just want it to be morning already, and you know that if you fall asleep it will be morning before you know it... But you can't!
  • When you have a little pile of pins on your floor and you keep forgetting they're there, so you have about a million little tiny holes in your foot from stepping on them... And when you have a drink next, you keep expecting little showers of water to funnel out through your toes like a sprinkler.
  • When you have a massive packet of your favourite flavour jelly beans, and you're thinking, "How on earth am I going to eat all this?" ... But somehow you manage to eat them, and there's one more jelly bean left, but you just can't seem to force yourself to eat it...

Monday, December 20, 2010

My Story - Part 1

We sat on the top of our bus shelter watching the world go by. The sun was just setting, and the footpaths were busy with slapping feet. The litter swirled in the gutters and the plastic covering the windows of a smashed up shop flapped in the chilly wind.
“So, what are we gonna do tonight?”
I flipped up the hood of my long, grey hoodie and tucked my knees into my chest. Staring at my scuffed high tops I replied to my boyfriend’s question. “Drain, maybe… Got your paint?”
“Yeah,” Chaz answered, squinting into his stained backpack. In unspoken agreement, we jumped off the bus shelter onto the grimy pavement and grabbed our bikes. Strands of my long black hair escaped my hood and curled around my face as my hood slipped off. The wind whooshed past as I dodged between pedestrians, bunny hopping and popping a wheelie when I had space. Chaz was right behind, grinning, his brown hair slicked back by the breeze. I didn’t hesitate to cut through deserted side streets and alleys; I knew the way. The grey shadows stretched longer in the twilight, and my heart pounded in anticipation of the night ahead. I had been hanging with Chaz every night since age ten, but it never got old. Whether we were just sitting on the bus shelter or mucking around on the bikes, we always found a way to make every night different. Now we were fourteen, we had added many different activities to our nightly schedule. Graffiti and shop lifting were daily pastimes where we lived, and it wasn’t hard to get into it. The adrenaline pulsing through you when you sprayed your tag on a wall, or slipped an invaluable item from the newsagents into your hoodie, was irreplaceable.
Backpacks bouncing, we hopped onto park benches and down stairs, twisting and jumping with a practiced confidence. Finally we reached the drain, and dropped our BMXs, panting.
“Beat you by a mile.” I teased, winking at Chaz.
“No chance babe, no chance,” He replied smiling. He slid his backpack off and balanced it on the seat of his rusty bike, pulling out two cans of spray paint. He chucked me the red one, and I turned swiftly to survey the walls. Weaving colours, telling stories of challenge and determination, rule breaking and defiance. I picked out my own story through the mass; cold nights with my best friend, breaking rules because there was nothing else to do. Stepping forward, I raised my arm to add a new chapter, as I heard the hiss of Chaz doing the same on the wall behind. When I was finished, I strode back to admire my work. The bright, dripping red was my symbol of rebellion, and I was proud.
“Right, moving on?” Chaz’s voice echoed in the large drain.
“Never gets old does it?” I answered as we picked up our bikes. Chaz nodded his agreement thoughtfully, and we set off again. We had no real path this time, just riding wherever we felt like, enjoying the wind in our faces. Somehow we made it back to our Chaz’s house, and sat out on the balcony. We just sat looking at the stars for I don’t know how long, but time didn’t matter because I was with Chaz. His scarred hand found mine in the dark and I turned to look into his eyes. A teasing smile spread across his face and he leant forward to kiss me cheekily.
Most would not agree that a dirty veranda above a rowdy council estate could be romantic, but I tell you from personal experience, it can.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Inspired by New Moon...

Those times when your heart turns to dust,
Shivering, trembling, loss of trust.
Mist, the remains of what was once love,
Shimmering, blinding, so high up above.
The dreams you once had, far, far out of reach,
Those glittering hopes and walks on the beach.
Your faith gone forever in one single word,
“Over,” he said, and that’s all you heard.

Memories chilling, a gaping wide scar,
The endless night sky without a bright star.
Nightmares are fierce, vivid and bright,
Of everything lost; of your guiding light.
The stabbings of nothing that strangle your heart,
Emptiness penetrates, tears you apart.
Your faith gone forever in one single word,
“Over,” he said, and that’s all you heard.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Festival...

I can taste sunlight and smiles,
Tangy spices on the hot breeze,
Wildflowers, and that famous pasta sauce,
Rich truffles wrapped in silk and ribbons.

I can hear the laughs and dancing,
Frolicking melodies entwined with joy,
The soft swish of wind over cobblestones,
And a passionate song of hugs and hope.

I can feel the sun on my back,
The kiss of a light wind on my face,
Soft petals opened,
To the bliss of a perfect spring day.

I can see a swirling mass of colour,
Acres of Italian smiles,
The spring stalls selling only the best,
Love and laughs and belonging.